… to keep yourself busy.

It is utterly frustrating. I am not referring to the title or line above. I am jumping nervously on my chair. Below the line I am writing right now, there are a dozen of other lines. All starters for a text. All of them… weak… both the content and English grammar. I have spent time watching a blank page in Word and even more time avoiding to stare at it. There are many things I want to write about, but they die as soon as they come to my mind. There is something in the way. I just cannot figure out what it is.

This is not the first time I am addressing this theme. I realise that some of you might think it is an excuse… or plainly boring. It is the best I can do at the moment. To describe what I am not able to describe. It frustrates me. I really dislike writing what I wrote above. I feel like swearing, well here it is: beep.

I have been thinking, as many probably have, that the things we do are pointless. Well, yes and no. I have discovered some light at the end of the tunnel. Pointlessness is a matter of definition. A life in itself (yours or mine) is pointless: it does not serve anything. We try to give it meaning or purpose. Some of us have taken God into their homes. For others, the concept of God is not satisfying.

Well, I think I have found a remedy for this: forget about it by taking control. You are the one feeding the brain. So, feed it with the things that do not make it all look futile. Set short term goals that require the minds attention. Then there is no room for endless contemplation. And there is more: the long term is filled with lots of tiny pieces of short term. Filling the short term automatically enriches the long term.

Some reach for the bottle or take pills. Both are like a ‘God’, an external thing imposing control on what we are unable to get a grip on: our mind. Maybe… we are supposed to be artists… that create a life… each and every day again. Even though it appears to be a tough job, it must have a rewarding payoff. The trick is to keep yourself busy. Be an artist, shape your life by doing.